Believe you are the chosen one

Why self-delusion is a forcing function to accomplishing your goals

Greetings from Palo Alto, California, USA.

Just a bunch of nerds in Silicon Valley

In my mid-twenties, I began meditating.

I spoke to a now-good friend about the insights I gained through LSD and mushrooms. He asked if I was interested in reaching that state of awareness without taking anything.

Of course, I was interested.

We spent the next three years meditating together at his house three days a week in a group setting.

He was right. I did reach that state of consciousness, at first only with his help, but more recently on my own. His meditation style is unlike anything I’ve experienced, and it is the product of being in a cult for 20 years (story for another time).

What finally clicked for me was something he once told me that I’ll never forget.

When you’re meditating, you bring to life something in a higher dimension and will it to collapse into the third dimension. This is probably what happens when people talk about manifesting something.

That process is very energy-intensive, and I had a hard time reaching certain higher consciousness levels on my own. Seeing my struggles, my friend told me that I wasn’t reaching the heights I wanted because I didn’t actually believe I was capable of doing so.

He said,

God only blesses those that truly believe they are special.

This ego-centric approach was completely new to me, and it felt uncomfortable to think this way.

But it works.

After I allowed myself to believe this, to truly believe I was special, my life changed. I had stronger, more profound meditations. I doubled, then tripled my income. I began to travel the world. I accomplished every goal I set out to do in my 20s.

But the feeling, if not nurtured, leaves you. Strangely, this happens to me when I’m in a relationship, which is why I now believe you should accomplish a large part of your goals before getting into a relationship.

I’ve had a lot of time lately for self-reflection. Things haven’t been going the way I’ve wanted them to for almost two years now, in the larger scheme of things. It’s been frustrating.

And I just remembered that at some point, about two years ago, I lost that feeling. I stopped consciously believing I was the one.

As an experiment, I’m reinvoking that belief. It worked very well for me last time. Perhaps it could work for you, too.

Until next time,

Jonathan